Next month, I’ll hit a major birthday milestone: The Big 4-0. So many thoughts continue to pound my brain as I contemplate this very special day in my life. Thoughts of how far I’ve come, and the life events which I’ve survived. Thoughts of ‘look at all you’ve achieved, Ms. Davis,’ as well as the thoughts of all the things I want to do. And most important, the thought that I’ve never been a “what if” person, and that I’ve either taken the opportunities and turned them into successes, or I made the opportunities happen.
I know sooo many women who celebrate the “15th or 20th anniversary of their 25th birthday.” Sure, I’ve got a few grays and some crows feet around the eyes, and of course my laugh lines, and yet, I would never “celebrate” the 15th anniversary of my 25th birthday. Next month, I’ll celebrate, yes, CELEBRATE, my 40th birthday.
I am a bad ass and a formidable woman, using the positive connotation of that word. I look back to the 16-year-old Lori and the 30-year-old Lori and think, you’ve come a long way baby! My experiences in life and love have shaped me, and done so for the better. I’m more knowledgeable and more experienced, I’m extraordinarily comfortable in my skin and most important, I’ve lived my life to the very fullest. I’ve enjoyed (and will continue to do so!) the best which life throws at me. I’ve also made mistakes which I hope to never repeat again.
When I think about previous birthdays, the one which really threw me for a loop was my 25th. I’m serious! On that day, all I could think about was, ‘Lori, you haven’t accomplished enough in life.’ I thought, ‘One quarter of your life is over. Have you done enough? Have you accomplished enough”‘ That was 15 years ago and with each new special birthday, I still think back to that conversation I had with myself and think, YES, I’ve done a lot in my life and I’m damn proud of my achievements.
I’m going to rename “The Big 4-0″ to “The Awesome 4-0hhhhh Here I Come World, Are You Ready!”